I don’t remember when exactly I stopped going to the church. I might have been 20 or 21 around that time. Growing up in a very religious family, I was shocked when I discovered some people really didn’t believe in God at all. I met my first boyfriend on a Catholic pilgrimage, the same one where my parents met some twenty years before. Less than a year later, my boyfriend left me to become a Catholic priest.
"I’m glad I gave myself this chance to seek out the Divine on my own terms instead of giving up and believing that I am simply not good enough for this life, and definitely not good enough for the next one."
I agree with this statement - the real God would prefer us to directly explore the idea of God and not take pre-packaged ideas. Have been through a similar journey myself and am glad to see/read about others. Best wishes.
If You Feel Like Your God Has Abandoned You, You're Not Alone
Maria, I am so enjoying your blog. I had a lot of thoughts on this one. Here's a song I wrote about my own experience: https://cynthiasongs.com/wp/wp-content/uploads/2013/05/BEA-002-Soul_to_Call_My_Own.mp3. The lyrics are on the link I (accidentally!) Sent above.
https://cynthiasongs.com/wp/music/beatitudes/
"I’m glad I gave myself this chance to seek out the Divine on my own terms instead of giving up and believing that I am simply not good enough for this life, and definitely not good enough for the next one."
I agree with this statement - the real God would prefer us to directly explore the idea of God and not take pre-packaged ideas. Have been through a similar journey myself and am glad to see/read about others. Best wishes.